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qing qing piao

2005-03-12T10:48:00.000+08:00

yet another saturday,hope it wont end up lik last wk liddat,dun reli wanna be stuck at home doin nth again... but den again,now everyday onwards is a holyday! im so glad e marchies r here =) even tho it duzen reli seem lik a real holyday anymor cuz mon,tue,wed n friday muz go back 4 sch stuff =.= <p> ytd afta sch,dunno-hu-hoRx,say wanna pierce ears den in e end chickened out...nvm,i can _stand e fear witin >.<> so me,3sa,Ky,Ts,Mess n Wc went westmall,den we ate there loRx,den after tt end up oni me n Mess pierced we got our 4th hole from e bottom part of e ear lobe... Mess got his 6th,n i finalli had my10th,i juz need 1 more,put tt part e bone lik a bit 2 thick,den i pa pa le. >,<
den after tt TS suddenly say wanna watch movie,den me n mess haven watched HITCH buden TS watch le,den actualli Mess got $0 =.= but cood borrow from da hao ren Yang Wei Cheng den Ky oso broke... Teresa oso dun wan....so in e end,every1 dun wanna watch le,plan nxt day durin holydays go watch =)
den suddenly Mess fil lik goin playground play,i rmb last tym owayz playin at WM there de playground,Sokyin's hse there de playground or Westcoast de wif Mess,Sok,Yz,Clem n sumtymz Px....aah,e good ol' days.

eH,gtg now,hahaax... dunno y Jiahui say diz song not nice,i tink itz nice le,one of those rare chinese song tt i reli reli like... i tryin 2 memo e lyrics...dun play play =) ... wheeex, it rocks loRx,so cute neR!

La Vita Betty

2005-03-08T22:07:00.000+08:00

FiRz tym since a long tym tt im ^datin 2wice a week...
suddenly had sth i wood wanna tok bout b4 i 4get...heheex...
ytd,my fuckin chi tcher called my mamma... den complain complain complain... make ma mamma cry... mummy says "i dun wanna hear any more complaints...plz"... made me fil so fkin guilty...
den 2day,she called again,cuz i stil haven passup anytin =P
but my parents were out,so i answered e fone... i dint reveal i was May loRx...
bitch : where is May's parents?<br> me : dey went out
b : any1 else left at home?
m : oni me
b : may i ask hu u are
m : i May's sister =D
b: complain complain bout me to ME... den i was lik orHx...yes...yes... May veri naughty... tsk tsk... i shall tell mummy... bla bla...
den i tink she tok non stop bout bad tings bout me to ME half-way... den she stop,she suddenly found it kinda suspicious... LoLx... zzZ
b: u are her older sister rite?
M :*thinks*... yes,i am
b: cuz ur voice sounds like hers
M : yes,i gaz so... we are sisters.
b : wad sch are u from?
M : err... Jurong Ville
B : wad lvl? sec 4?
M : yes...
B : how are your studies den?
M : quite ok... betta dan May's =D
B : dont be like May... she is reli hopeless... everytym in class do other tings,oso dunno wad she doin... blah blaH ... ya mother has came 2 sch regardin other tingz b4...did u noe? i cood hav got her suspended... but it wood be veri... err,sorry,my english veri bad,dunno how 2 xpress...bla bla...<br> M : hmmmx,yes yes... May veri e attitude rite?...tsk... i will tell mummy... dun worry
aaaaH hahahahahaha!!!! LoLx... veri funny loRx,i was tryin so hard not laf... zzZ,she wan me tell me mamma 2 cum Parent Meetin session... i lik wif so much fkin luck den neva get tt white form... she tink i will so 2pid go ask ma mamma go listen 2 her crap den cry summor meHx... hahahax... 2pid bitch... my results for common test quite ok... except for her subj... 20+...zzZ...dun care,i put in my best effort le =)... n im SATISFIED!

... hmmmmx, hope she dun find out my sis oni in primary 6...zzZ...

i take the hold...!

2005-03-05T09:51:00.000+08:00

fuck diz world... fuck me
dun push me down... dun make me scream out loud.........................................

haizzz,dunno wadz wrong wif me... i fil so empty inside... Messiah is driftin away, Jiahui n me probably facin a strain sumwhere... sth's wrong... everytin fils so wrong...
was it sth i did wrong? .... why is everytin so fucked up?......... AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
where is everyone??? im disgusted by e loneliness...
wait n bleed... ill wait n bleed... i need to breathe.

world,e tym has cum to... galvanize.

2005-02-27T23:22:00.000+08:00

oKie,gonna make diz a real fast one,cuz itz lik 11.30 liaoz... den wen dad gets back,he's prob gonna pull off e plug once he sees me usin e com...
oKee,diz week has been quite a borrin one...
Wednesday,took my fiRz neoprint wif my dear PANG JIAHUI aka OLIVE PANG CHUCKY ^^ (3sa said jH looked lik "chucky" n jH got e "olive" afta she gave me an "oily advice" >.<)...e pic is at e pic corner,mite wanna look at it =)
thursday i at fiRz wanted 2 go CCK watch e Bad match(which our skool B-gals won ^^) but i in e end go meet my pri sch fren... AaahH >.<... infatuation cood probably turn 2 obsession if i dun wake out of it (Arron even offered 2 slap me awak... no thanx boy =.=)
friday afta skool,go eat,den e whole lot of us went library... we went 2 e top floor to read bout girly stuff n sex ^^
zzZ,si Mess,everyday stil go home so early... dunno wad he stil savin $$ fer... which reminded me,im spose 2 giv Mui2 her pRezzie tml,but i stil short of a box n a card =/... btw,in case sum of u(pretty rare) dunno,Mui juz turned 15... HAPPY MUI DAY TO MUI MUI ^^
i friday nite,saturday n sunday mornin had tuition...haixx... itz reli a fuck in e neck to wake up early on weekends n hav knowledged drilled in2 my mind... but sumhow,i fil im WAKING UP(finalli)... i gotta starta learn 2 take my studies seriously...wooden wanna end up in Fugville.
got back my Chinese Common Test btw,i got a 24/100...zzZ...fugematafuga.
2day after tuition went 2 Library 2 study wif Jen dey all...den afta tt go eat,den go arcade play a while...Jen needed 2 recharge back on her DDR n PP.she rocks k? ^^
den at LJS,got 1 fuckin aunty kb my frenz...aaargH. curse her die horribly in car crash,her hubby get aids go suicide,her dotta bcum a whore,her son get his dick bitten by dog n get dog disease end up mental hospital... heeheex,imaginations rocks =)
anywayz,beta go le... tml got E-maths...hope can pass quite well...i need summor motivation tho =/ (whooox! believe or not,i typed diz whole entry in juz 13 mins ^^)
nitexx y'all.

Anywayz,diz Static X song rocks ^^

chingay menace

2005-02-20T19:56:00.000+08:00

Hmmmx,had quite a day ytd... rather fun i muz say... tho i actualli wanted 2 go Clementi arcade de... but i can do tt nxt wk or nxt nxt week baHz... but Teresa,Jessica n Sherlyn did bring me 2 Cineleisure's arcade 2 play 4 a while... i para para-pro woRx! dun play play___ i rock!
at fiRz met wif Teresa,den at met Jess on e train... den we wok wok,3sa bot diz blue SlurpinApe shirt,den we made our way 2 Far East 2 meet Sher n Melissa... we spent lik ages at 77th Strt(juz lik 1hr actualli),Jess tried out lotsa clothes,n she kept complainin she's fat >.<... i tink she's rather sexy.honestly ^^... anywayz,at there i fell in luv wif diz pink number...lovely!...
e galz juz discovered 2day tt i hav a rather bad habit of lettin my attention get seized by big boobs tt we pass along e way... i cant help it... but im not les hoRx... not now...not yet ^^... we took sum neos at Cine btw,uploaded sum in2 e pix corner ^^
anywayz,diz Blinky song roxx duzen it? luv it 2 e core ^^
den initially i was spose 2 go home at ard 5plus... den later my Dad called me 2 tell me tt i dun nid 2 le... so wen e galz all wanted 2 go home,i went 2 find Carol,grace,Arron,Ts dey all at Far East,i had a hard tym makin my way from Cine 2 F.E... there were lik countless road blocks n human jams... zzZ...sweet of 3sa,Jess n Sher 2 pei me n show me e way...dey were sure tt i'd get lost >.<
den pai summor neos wif em... e machine was too fast den alot of pix turned out crappy,so we decided 2 blow up sum of e pix...LoLx...uploaded sum,check out e one wif Arron,Ts n Cindy eyes blown up...hahaax...

aaaH,got much 2 say but Mum's reli on her laz nerves le... gTg,buH byee

numa numa iei

2005-02-11T19:58:00.000+08:00

when i tink back on all tt happened on juz 2day... i feel so FOOLISH and STUPID
sorry if i like got anyone in2 trouble or scared anyone... or wasted so much of any1's tym... one hang-over was enuf... tym to wash my hands clean...
i yearn tt i werent e way i am...

sorry brian,i sucked at tryin 2 cover up,if i werent so stupid,nth wld hav happened 2day,wood it?damn,...i suck.

all of this

2005-02-08T16:49:00.000+08:00

2day chinese new yr eve... yuPx,means a reli greeat day ahead tml 4 e chinese...so good,got red packets leHx!... so pathetic me,not chinese,buden,can go frenz de hse leech red packets,heheex!
oKie,2day start off,i was late 4 skool,same bus wif Haris n diz Chun Soon or wadeva from my class... but lucky,tink is cuz of CNY spirit or wad,dey juz let us off...whoopeex! if not,it'd be recorded s my 6th tym bein late loRx...so cham... term juz bout halfed,den i already 6 liaoz...

on monday,me went wif sum of my classm8s,Theo,Wx,Yz,Wr,M.L,den go BANQUET eat,my brekfast sandwiches sucked,i oni took a few bites,den Theo helped me finished...
den we planned 2 go back at ard 2 periods later,buden at ard 8+,got sum tchers or whoeva from YUHUA SEC cum inspect e place loRx,den go take down our names...so v e wad loRx!!diff skool oso wan...den we went back,initially i wanted 2 sneak back 2 class,buden e rest dun wan,so i juz follow em report ourselves loRx,waaH,2pid GO! he go tell my Mum tt next tym i do diz YET AGAIN(laz yr oso cot once),i will tio suspend...siao! he scare me can liaoz,y scare my mum,she v e sensitive 1,den i tink she after tt sure cry cry cry loRx....

oKie,back to 2day le,at e class there at fiRz v siaaaN!!! cuz Teresa got choir n all tt... den after a while,i started helpin deco e class...actualli it was Brian's idiot,he took sum reli long piece of green thrash cloth den go hang at window... den we all juz kept playin wif tt loRx,JH,Mess,Clem dey all oso came ova... den we lik play throw e cloth down,cuz reli long maHz... den got sum notti notti juniors,go try 2 snatch e cloth...LoLx...we at tt tym act act angry,but actualli quite fun...
den after tt had e concert tingy... aiYo!!! choiir kinda screwed up,zao xia alot,den veri soft...haizz... lucky i wasnt up on stage,so kookoomalu sia =X
after tt go eat brekfast at Mac wif Arron Ts dey all,den after a while Carol n LW came too... LoLx,my coffee spilled on Carol's uniform... LoLx,i at fiRz kept laffin lik fug(so baad >.<) buden i helped her wash both e skirt n e shirt,den help dry too loRx...cuz wen it cums 2 diz kinda manual chores,those gentle gentle gu-niangs lik Carol totalli suck at it =P...jK...but i rock k? u said so yaself...heheex... Nigel's lollipop cause diz mayhem...yuP,so he offered his shirt 2 Carol 2 wear loRx... den Carol made arrangement for her frenz 2 bring her xtra clothes... den we all went jP,i made 3 new frenz baHz X.x... Ivy,Pei Yi n Sth-Xing(oMg...i 4got... Xing-Xing ah? =/ ) den we there go arrange 2 find Regina e prezzie,me Arron Ts Clem shared baHz... den we made his keychain tingy wif her name on it... i did most of e choosin n stuff,cuz needed a GIRLY-TOUCH 2 it (even tho Carol asks why i am a gal,n tt i shooden be...deep inside,i stil hav diz girl-power loRx >.<)

at fiRz planned 2 watch movie...den in e end,everytin all screwed up... den end up oni me Carol n Xing-Xing can watch,but e tickets werre sold out,wtf X.x
so we went KFC eat loRx,den LW n PeiYi came back,den dey eat too,we kept tokkin tokkin,den keep pai video wif Carol's fone... yuP... after tt we wok wok,den saw Tham-Tham =)... den went 2 take neoprints =)...

den i went home alone,wtf loRx... i go sit at e back there,den at there got 3 JV assholes... cheebai dey... act beng de... den i juz sit there mind my own fuckin business,1 of em who sit bhind me de,kept fannin himself...e wadeva-he-used kept hittin ma head,den i juz lik turn my head a bit 2 signal tt it was hittin me...den tt fucker carry on fan again...den 2nd tym i *TSK*... den it stopped le... den fuck la 2 of em,wanna go off liaoz,den tok 2 each other say i KB kept turn ard n tsk... knn,if i kept hit tt guy on his head,he will bs or not leHx?... den i juz pretend i dint hear,den dey got off le,i sort of lik tried 2 rmb their faces,den i told one of their frenz (diz one more beta dan e 2 bhind) 2 tell those fuckers not happy den juz cum find me scold me in e face,dun sissy-kias at e back gossip 2 each other... LoLx,mayb i got a bit 2 pissed baHz... but one ting for sure,i dun eva wanna see their bloody faces again...

aaaH,my sissy faggot of a tutor is comin soon le...siiaaaN! take care peeps =x

the lite .. the tunnel

2005-02-05T13:07:00.000+08:00

yesterday was FHS's 6th Sports Day... den me,Mess,Ts n Ch headed straight 4 arcade after skool... play until quite shuang... e Ts learnin how 2 Ddr,LoLx,he play until veri e "cute" leHx,*miss* *miss* *miss*... but nvm la,keep it up,every1 started out diz way,i gaz... but now Jen Jen veri pro liaoz >.<...
at e stadium there,we kept foolin ard... i was in a reli good "GREEN HSE MOOD" cuz we did pretty well diz yr le! YAYY!!! no longer last... 2nd last tho =.=... buden at e startin we were in e lead... den we kept play at e back there loRx... we played diz "squashin" game,where we all line up n juz squash sum1... den we got caught by Govind for doin doin so... every1 all scattered cuz he came up 2 look 4 us... i followed Zimin run away,but Govind cot me...so malu =/...he was veri angry tt i was playin "hide n seek" wif him... n den after tt,he made me stand alone at e Yellow Hse there,no escape,he asked e tchers 2 guard me... wtf... but sum of ma frenz saw me there,den ask wad happen n all tt,ttz wen tingz go all wrong...

dammit i hate myself,why cant i juz shaddup wen im in a situation where silence n patience is all tt matters,i speak wadeva tt cums in2 my head n neva tink bout e consequence... i suck... why do i owayz get myself misunderstood? i believe... im wrong.

since e past week,i've been filin sth... diz sudden overwhelming surge of emptiness... out of nowhere for no reason... i tot i was juz tired... y did Bala say wadeva tt she did? how cood she noe how im filin beta dan me? mayb she's wrong... i believe... im wrong again. (anywayz she sucks half e tym,tt im sure im rite...hahaaz) fils lik im unknowingly juz cavin in 2 myself.

LoLx,laz week i wasnt late for even a day,den diz week i was late 2 days in a row...uH oH...was spose 2 go find Go 4 my frequent late comin ting after Sports Day,but i left... i cood say "i 4got",cant i?
den monday skip class eat brekfast b4 go skool,hope diz new clique's got wad it takes 2 sneak in,no skills required,itz all bout ur guts.. =P
i fil lik my class is brekin up again,i reli wish 3E wood be s united s laz yr de 2B... no class spirit... but tingz cood get beta...i hope.
Shawn,laz yr he sucked lik hell,s u all noe... anywayz,now being my clasm8,i tot i'd make life ez 4 him n make peace instead of tauntin him 24/7... he oni gets worse... he's so full of himself now,filin too high n mighty... he needs sum1 2 bring him back 2 reality i gaz...
Teckwin,disgustingly crappy,total attention seeker,sumtymz ppl luv u 4 juz shutting up... it'd take a friggin miracle 2 make him see tt,he believes he's MR FUNNY,none of wadeva he says appeals 2 e class at all,n he's totalli oblivious... baaH,pathetika...
My chinese tcher,unreasonably drunk on power,keeps usin "OEN" 2 scare us,y cant she juz get a life,i dispise her 4 havin no backbone...her teachin style is shooo kindergartenish,we read e same word THREE TYMZ,i 4got e laz tym we were taught diz way... n she totalli luvs hittin ppl,anywayz,we've complain bout her 2 e Skool Authorities le... she reaps wad she sows,i gaz she's juz sowing on e wrong field now...
Betty Lee,she got her hair cut,disgusting,gorrilla wif a helmet... if she cood juz stop tryin sooo hard 2 appear high classed,it mite help a bit... e way she toks,her facial expressions... it makes u fil so belittled,lik s tho she believes she's above e rest by class... damn her... cooden get tru even one lesson witout failin to mention "if u wanna go to ACJC"...wad made her tink we wanted 2 go there,n y ACJC? juz bcuz she went there herself? proud pig.

wow... tt was a reli long enttry... yuP... stop here le... buH bye... im late!!! spose 2 meet Jen dey all at JE now... damn... i suck!

we noe where we go

2005-01-29T11:45:00.000+08:00

today Pearly's bafday... HAPPI BAFDAY PEARLIE...den yesterday was Regina's bafday... HAPPY BAFDAY too =)... haizz... now itz a saturday afternoon... but im at home alone... so siaaaaaaaaaan... no one made any plan 2 go anywhere yet... wanted 2 go arcade but cant find ppl 2 pei me >.<

Brian introed me diz song "ALL OF THIS" by Blinky feat. diz Cure guy Robert... e song sooo nice... veri mellow,den sad saad... kinda deep.
diz week i've been extra busy n everytin... had 2 settle sum Student pass problem tingy... so frustratin... it wore me out... im not even sure if itz okie for me 2 go 2 skool next week... damn... and i managed 2 get tru diz whole week witout being late for skool... yayy! =)... den Sports Day all tt comin,i shood be takin part in sum racing shyt... but i cooden make tym for tt... dint go 4 selection den late for e heats... aaah well.. heheex

Den diz week got in2 quite sum stiff moments wif tchers baHz... esp Betty,cooden stand her lately (or mayb itz juz me,im juz gettin sick of her)... her lesson owayz got diz presentation tingy,den on e slide i drew her,fat n horrid (itz a fact) den 3sa drew sum cute cute pics of Betty tryin 2 chase ppl up e hills of sth >.<... den of coRz e class lafs... den i gaz Betty kookoo malu den angry le... ask me 2 stay back 4 recess n Brian too,he did dunno wad 2 dunno hu... den i told her she cant do diz cuz if we gastric den she responsible... den she pretended not 2 care...wtf...
den go c her,she made us memo six lines of dunno wad crap,den she lik purposely wan,let Bri off earlier...den keep sayin not satisfied wif my memo-in... den in e end i go liaoz,she asked me not 2 draw tchers again... den i told her "i neva draw u waad,u got see (BETTY) meHx?"
LoLx... she den anyhow go pull my ear den pinch my arm... eeeek... say wad, "dun be a notti gal"... den i was lik "yaya... next tym u dun anyhow touch me",she was lik "cum back here" den i was lik *gone* >.<
den Jiahui diz week go "stomach-flu" den owayz sick loRx...poor ting (. .)

aaaah siiaaaan... so desperately wanna go arcade le... at e worst...mayb i can ask my sis pei me go...... on 2nd tot... NO WAY...argh!
den i tink Sunday go watch tt Elektra tingy baHz... wheeex... *fingers crossed*
changed e damn tagboard le...i cooden see TAG-BOARD,den everytym lag up my blog...den change 2 diz C-Box tingy... much beta le... yuP yuP =D

tc peeps.

u make me wanna fa-lala >.<

2005-01-20T21:53:00.000+08:00

1 more week gone le... hmmmx,nth much 2 say leHx...let me fork sum out of ma drained brain
i was late 2day,makin it my 2nd tym diz term... den 2day was actualli spose 2 go dunno wad Green House selection tingy,oMg,i neva go... can i take it as "i forgot"?,it owayz works ^^ not ma fot loRx,2pid Pei En =P,told her 2 take away my name liaoz dun wanna listen *tsk tsk*... brings me 2 tok bout diz legendary Green hse of mine,EVERY BLOODY YEAR WE GET LAST ).(!!! anyone plannin to change diz history meant for generation,my pleasure,make diz miracle happen... cuz wen u noe how to dream......... u'll probably drool =.=
eH,American Idol comin... so kooL ^^,sumtin 2 crack off on again... yeH!
den ytd,i went for my fiRz choir pract diz yr...e gei-tai singer damn buay song,cant blame her,i try 2 b _standing =P
tml,dunno i wanna go where,jen dey all goin Expo play,i dun get it,Expo is juz empty,wad can we do there leHx? i tot can watch movie or sth... awww, =/... i fil a bit arcade-ish,but i gotta control,itz lik... chocolate,once i pop,i cant stop.... my worst fear now? ending up nowhere but home tml...

stop here le... take care u guys

dun burst ma bubble

2005-01-14T20:22:00.000+08:00

LoLx,finalli updatin' again after quite sum tym... hmmmx... =/
To start off,i noe diz song i've chosen for my blog...is eRm,pretty... weird... juz wanna try it out 4 a change =)
hmmmx,juz finished watchin "Koi...Mil Gaya" a bollywood movie,yuPx, it means "I found someone"...sth liddat... hahaaz... veri sweet... starrin my fave hithrik roshan of coRz (he rox lik fug!)... den dLing a new game too... so liddat den move on from Conquer le =/ heheex...
eRm,tok bout skool le... now juz completed 2nd week,yuP,n i've oni been late for one teeny weeny tym, can consider improve le baHz ^^... den laz week e maths test,i got 5.5/20... im not reli bothered by e overall... itz juz e results for each paper tt bothered me,one paper i got 5/10 den e other i got 0.5/10... LoLx... veri e malu... at least Mr Go gave me sum face,gave me a 0.5... den 2pid Brian at there kept mockin me,yaH yaH,cuz he got a 12...baaH... diz week maths test,i sure top! ^^ got study de hoRx! dun play play!
dun reli hav much 2 tok bout... hmmmx... oH yaH,tml i tink im goin out wif my frenz baHx,i reli dunno... hahaax... sorta broke,i OWE my mum $$,tt fact alone is quite intimidatin' 2 me...grrR....
den eRm,veri long neva go cinema le... zzZ... tink nxt week got plan baHx... hope so *fingers crossed*...
riiight,n eRm,next week is oso Clement's bafday... den lik 10 days later,it's Regina's bafday... wheeeheee... shuang la dey,turn 15 liaoz... ^^

den haiz... i need 2 cut my hair again,teachers keep catchin say v messy,but i cant help it maHx... now dey keep pressin me 2 cut my back... itz already quite damn short for a gal liaoz... dey wan me 2 be neat,n tie up... den stil ask me cut... fuck fuck fuck... oH bother!
dunno wad 2 say le,end here fiRz baHx... hahaaz... til nxt tym,take caare peeps!

zoo-naa-mee X,x

2005-01-05T23:29:00.000+08:00

school starts liaoz...go ah-ah-ah-ah!!!

oKie,now i move corridor liaoz...so damn saaad... tingz juz dun fil e same... i can see my other Xpress frenz,wokkin across their side of e corridor lik we owayz did laz yr,xcept diz tym,im juz watchin from e other block...

my classm8z,dey're oKie... pretty fun at tymz... Brian keeps tokkin alot in class,he plans 2 suck up 2 every tcher or sth... anywayz,Lai's my co-form,Miss Ong's my form... Betty Lee teachin us english (fuck fuck fuck)... LoH stil teachin us,physics...baaH... maths lessons rock wif our D.M. Mr Go...he's oK ^^
and im stil slpin alot of in class,lik owayz,i cant help it... chinese lessons r lik kindergarten fug now,seriously,tt lady make us repeat words s a class over n over again... zzZ...
sth tt reli reli makes me fucked up,is tt 2pid thief... laz tym i other block,no need 2 see her bloody face sooo much,now same corridor liaoz,she everytym wok past my class lika zillion tymz a day 2 go toilet,den everytym diao diao diao...screw diz bytch! diao so much 4 nth,hope her friggin small eyeballs drop out,den i play play play wif it,dip in ketchup,put inside her noodles,make her choke on her own eyeballs... muahhahahah.... kk,im goin bonKerz...2pid thief.

AAAHH,so damn bored... spice up my life God,make it lik b4... i wanna go wild >.<... DUN BORE ME TO DEATH,plzzzz....

tis e season 2 fil holey

2004-12-31T14:56:00.000+08:00

got my books bought,mum came along tt day... she kept naggin all e way,lik owayz,buden again,cum 2 tink of it again,wen im pretty much older,ill be missin all her shit =(...i oni hope she givs me e chance to ACTUALLI miss it

and on tt day itself,i had my hair cut b4 i went home... i liked it ^^... itz a miracle,i actualli liked e way a change turn out in e moment itself =), den on way home met Arron n TS, Arron said i can turn 2 em if i had prob wif stylin n stuff... yeH,thanx 4 e kind offer ^.^

e nxt day went shoppin... i am so dead broke... i nid 2 save up 4 a new bag n all tt,cuz i hav not a single bloody cent left from pizza sellin... i am TINKIN of learnin how 2 save $$ again,be strict wif myself n stuff... well,if TINKIN means of any improvement,den i tink i've grown up pretty much alot,cuz i had been tinkin ALOT bout tt issue.

tml im goin out again wif Carol n Teresa... Orchard baHz... i said "I AM" which means in e end,I WILL... e oni prob is gettin my mum 2 let me... in e end,SHE WILL... but itz lik diz ORDEAL i hav 2 go tru EVERY FRIGGIN TYM i wanna go out... curse me 4 being born in2 diz kinda culture. baaH.

b4 i actualli 4get,itz NEW YR EVE 2day... bringz me 2 tink bout e bash at Sentosa... and e tsunami waves... imagine e wave actualli hittin tt place on tt tym,e whole island will be washed off,den e party souls will look down at their dead floatin bodies from e sky n will be tinkin lik "fuck,i had paid 19 bucks juz 2 die"... imagine wad will happen 2 e media,wif most e local celebs dead... nvm,4get it... i dunno wad im tokkin anymor... i probably goin nuts.
i juz finished watchin Seed Of Chucky,dl de(got sum pretty nice scenes ^^)... den ma Conquer e character lvl 82 liaoz =/... skool reopen can play so much liaoz... aaah well.

Happy New Yr everybody

wad e hallelujah?

2004-12-27T15:09:00.000+08:00

awww,diz is wad happens wen u hav xtremely great galfrenz =P dey help bring u back 2 earth. >.<

oKie,ive been a total asshole 2 my bloggie yeH? too much Conquer i gaz,i juz turned lvl 80 ^^,Messiah's lik 100+ now...baaHz,i cant train lik fug lik him,ill die...

Let me recall wad stuff took place since e laz tym i ^dated...eRm... well,we hav our regular arcade hanging outs,WEI CHENG turned 14 =) den we went 2 his Bd chalet,made frenz wif his line-dancin peeps,dey're cool,esp Philips,totalli,he's in2 spiritual stuff n all tt
and den we had e class chalet,Jenmey managed 2 convinced ma mum 2 let me stay overnite...wheeeex,e class chalet was kooL,esp e nite trips...well i got in2 an issue wif sum SESAME STREET guy...he made me fall down on e cement floor,fuck him... my leg looks lik i've juz fought wif a cat liddat... __ SESAME STREET GANG!!! >.<
after tt we dint reli hang out much liaoz...i tink,no more arcade since lik 1 week liaoz =)...my para para improved liaoz...whee!!! LIUWAH de oso got improve laH,add oil baby! ^^
one of e most important tingz on ma mind now are e skool books,yesH fellow mates,i haven bought em yet...skool wanna reopen liaoz...aaaaaahhhHH fooK! den muz arrange lotsa much more stuff,lik uniforms,bags...and my hair,e green extension already dropped,so oni need 2 dye back den cut again...Jen cut her hair liaoz...shooo cute,lika butch liddat,now at least she no need bother her hair messi or not...LoLx...

beta get back 2 CONQUER...s much s i hate 2 admit it,imma game addict now

i take it all back back back

2004-12-07T17:30:00.000+08:00

heehee...easy cum, easy go...
i take back everytin i said k?... we're cool =)

LoLx

dun tink tt u're so great,cuz bein great muz suck

2004-12-06T21:05:00.000+08:00

dont push it,jerk!

quit tellin me bout severin frenship so many tymz over small matters,it oni makes me tinks u dun cherish frenship... well yeaH... or TOOL-SHIP rather.

wen i say i wont tell,i wont.
paranoid asshole
"not lik u firz day noe me wad"
cant i say e same?
i luv pullin ppl's leg
but im careful
i noe wad im doin

u'll neva noe how it fils... dun push it... cuz sumtymz im so evil,i scare myself... itz an automatic n reckless reaction everytym i blow up... dun blame me if i do.

wipe tt smirk rite off ya face

2004-12-02T22:54:00.000+08:00

WaaaaH, so long neva update liaoz... yeaP... too bz wif CONQUER... Mess e old acc got hacked,den he had 2 create new one... but his new one hoRx,he CHEAT one...bleaH... n itz lik now he higher dan me...NO FAIR!...ah well,heck.

Nth much is up wif me...eh,my DDR improved...yeaP... hangin out quite alot at arcades now... den sellin pizzas,oni led 2 me havin a bigger collection of ppl's doorbell... i hav lik 10 plus now?i shall give deez ripped off doorbells 2 Homeless kids s CHRISTMAS prezzie...hehe... give em a filin of havin a HOME by lettin em press doorbells all dey long... nice way 2 spend Xmas... but where do i find homeless peeps?...4get it! im goin bonkers... hell,yeaH.

diz song...LINE AND SINKER...itz reli nice too... aint it? BILLY TALENT is lik reli nice... their style kinda diff from e rest...

wad else shood i tok bout? oH yeaH,Ruotin said sth bout NO CHALET???!!!...dun scare me...oH plz dont... WwwaaaaaaaaaaaH!

i cant believe itz DECEMBER already...Xmas is comin...new year oso comin...im so freaked out... skool means lesser tym for CONQUER! =( ... n 2 Brian,bout tt DARK EDEN ting? perhaps later...i wanna be TOP 10 FEMALE TROJAN(s Mess planned)... hahaz... well,i can dream on....
and eRmz,hmmmmx... TAUFIK won...yeaP... cant say itz wrong... he got e moves n voice... SLY is reli cute... i voted lik 10 tymz 4 him... but e way he kinda screwed up on stage,made me wanna cry =(... his DICTION dammit... gotta work hard on tt one.

LOOK AT ME AND DONT FORGET.... (get down)

izit a dream or a memory

2004-11-25T13:06:00.000+08:00

AAAAAAAAAAaaaaaaahhhhhHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!

sth's wrong wif my CONQUER... AAARRRRGHHHH!!!! i cant get tru... juz opened e file den e system say got wad "SOCKET ERRORR"... diz is soooo not happenin... oh hell, plz no... i kept re-installin...itz not workin... oh fark oh fark.

yesterday met JEN,MESS and CH go Chevron's arcade... we played hell long there... playin e para-para machine there is sorta harder dan WESTMALL's... and CH danced lik a stomper liddat 4 e DDR,LoLx,so much for all his "SECRET TRAININ" at home... hahaha... even i can play beta dan him loRx! den after tt me MESS and JEN went 2 CCK station... met e rest... go sell pizzas...
me team wif JEN n MESS wif DOLLY n KY wif TROY... she's brot her sis along too,n her sis brot her fren along... hee hee... e beginning of a new legion of pizza sellers... den me n JEN e whole day until lik 7pm oni sold 4... n we lik agreed tt we weren't in e mood 2 sell pizza... we juz felt lik playin n havin fun... den i started rippin off doorbells of sum houses... on e 3rd floor,i ripped off diz doorbell,den e bell kept ringing by itself after i took e ting off... den we were lik "OMFG!" den quickly ran off wif e pizzas go hide under sum block n waited 4 MESS n DOLLY 2 go playground n juz hang ard... so we juz kept doin lame stuff all e way til 10 plus... LoLx... uncle was surprised... me n JEN took 24 pizzas but oni sold 4...Zzz... how embarrassin... JEN even told him it was "A PIECE OF CAKE" wen we were takin e pizzas... LoLx

dunno wad 2 say liaoz... blaH blaH blaH... my life has bcum borrrrin... i have tuition later n NO CONQUER!!!...fark fark fark!

aernidius

2004-11-24T01:19:00.000+08:00

well... ok,haven update 4 lik ages... imma so worn out 2 actualli update... been busy lately sellin pizzas,dancin para paras,watchin movie and most of all...playin Conquer... yea,i lvl 34 oni... tt idiot Messiah aka parapara-lord is lvl 70+... grrr
2day i sold solo cuz got odd no. of ppl sellin pizzas,i sold 12 boxes n made lik 38 bucks... hee hee,not bad.im satisfied at last... i dint hav emotional brekdown everytym im sellin e damn pizzas 4 nth u noe...
yesterday(actualli i meant e day b4 yesterday since itz oladi 1.25am now) went 2 go watch THE INCREDIBLES... tt show was friggin funny n nice... 2day went 2 watch SHUTTER,see loRx,all Jenmey's fot,she wooden let me hide bhind ma bag n forced me 2 look at e ghost s it comes out... now i stil hav e images runnin in ma head... filin so frigged out yeaH.

tml probably goin 2 arcade play baHz,my para para reli improved alot... even tho Mess may stil keep tryin 2 push me down,i noe im good at it 2...juz nid more practice... den wen im not havin fun or makin money,im at home trainin ma Conquer... i owayz play overnite til lik 6am den sleep =) ... diz is e kinda holiday life i wan... hell,yeaH!

tru ma veins

2004-11-20T13:40:00.000+08:00

okie, tt day in e end neva go work loRx cuz mamma reli cooden allow... den dint wanna be stuck at home so planned 2 go WM wif ma sis 2 pierce ma ear den mayb catch a movie... n by sum luck Brian was there too, den i had 2 more earholes done,practised ma para-para... and i PASSED... YAY!!! improved alot loRx! muz defeat that Para para-lord Messiah... we all cot diz lame movie PRIDE N PREJUDICE... it was real funny how dramatic everytin was,i neva actualli tot tt way before (I LOVE BOLLYWOOD)... but itz kinda shitty wen dey translate indian songs in2 english.

The last two days or so,sales been damn bad... eight or nine pizzas oni... im lik startin 2 get SICK of it... SICK,as in LITERALLY... LoLx,as far s i noe,i usualli tend 2 heck care bout lotsa stuff,den itz lik... slowly i cavin in 2 e pressure of sellin pizzas... cant sell out den juz cooden handle it... i was lik tokkin 2 diz costumer,me n Dolly already veri tired out n filin hopeless liaoz... i started cryin while i tok... LoLx... so malu... yesterday oso had ma first taste of workin in a factory... it was easy, but Mark boss say muz wait til 3rd of e next month den can get pay... havin 2nd tots loRx ppl.

i later meetin Messiah,Brian,Jen at WM arcade... yeaP... i tink i late -.-.

ouch

2004-11-17T10:54:00.000+08:00

waaah... there sumtin wrong wif ma com screen so i cant write much... e problem= e screen offs by itself once e button has been release... so i m reli havin a hard tym wif it...
i had ma nose pierced yesterday... it reli hurt at firz... n now itz quite ok,i actualli cried a bit wen e lady shot e stud in2 ma nose... den went 2 sell pizza... diz tym me n JEN improved alot... we sold finish our 15pizzas witin e range of two half blocks... yeaP... den we took 3 more pizzas n sold it off too,we're e last team 2 complete again,but i tink we made e most $$$,cant say why, itz a trade-secret... ok,den go eat KFC wif HX n TROY... got home liaox,den fell so damn ill... mayb it e whether or sumtin... i started 2 keep sneezin n coughin... my body ached all over, my upperbody felt boilin hot n my lower one felt freezin cold... i caught a cold wen i had juz pierced ma nose,it juz totalli sark wen u cant blow ya nose witout hurtin it... hell,yeaH

but wif sum miracle,i feel much beta 2day...even tho mom said she cant let me go out 2day but i havta,sumhow.. i wanna play arcade n make more $$$ =)

mother i have lost ma way

2004-11-16T13:28:00.000+08:00

yesterday had ma fiRz exprience of woRk... yeaP... went aRd sellin pizza door ta door... well,diz was e oni ting tt i cood actualli do even tho i aint no p.R... yeaP... all thanx 2 ARRON bahz,cuz he was e GUY behind our shot at e job.

pluz,it was TING SHENG's BAFDAY yesterday... yeaP... went 2 watch "TAXI" fiRz,i was late...as alwayz...diz tym 40mins...n im e oni one late... yeesH... i tried out ma sis's gray eye shadow(cooden get a black one)... MESSIAH bot a black one,he wasnt tt good at applyin,considerin he wasnt a REAL gal... the movie was nice,kinda lame... TOTALLY.

after movie,we went e tt CHEVRON(huh? wadz tt spellin again?) place 2 bowl... but fiRz we went 2 e arcade there... i TRIED to improve on ma para para n dance move... but no,i failed witin juz lik a few secs... CAROL n GRACE learned reli fast... dang! im e oni dumbass left... so i juz played e DJ machine tingy e most... it was kinda hard,considerin imma person wif no sense of direction... den HAN XIANG n TING SHENG oso got interested... n me n HAN XIANG team up n we finally PASSED one stage in tt ting... LoLx... it mite mean nth 2 u guys,but it totally did 2 me.

den we went bowlin at last... i reli improved alot on tt one n i discovered WEI REN was reli good at it... yeaP...got lotsa strikes n sparrrrs... den TING SHENG got 2 blow his candles THREE times... LoLx... cuz he dumb maHz, i juz kiddin kiddin say "HAPPY BAFDAY 2 YOU... OK NOW,BLOW!"... den he reli go n blow... den ppl all surprised look at him,den he at there gong-gong dunno wad happened liddat... LoLx... so YEE CHENG had 2 re-lite up e candles... TING SHENG juz blew again... den dey all say he haven make a wish yet,so YC had 2 re-lite it again... den TS finalli got tru e whole process properly... his cake was reli nice,yeaP... ANNABEL was smart 2 hav chosen a chocolate one... well,mayb i did get 2 greedi... hell,yeaH.

den we were late 4 work liaoz... ARRON asked me 2 lead 2 way... den me n JENMEY marched real fast 2wards e station... den we started joggin... den runnin... MESSIAH outran me in e end,i came in second.. not bad... i neva run 4 veri long liaoz.. my stomach hurt lik hell... no stamina i guess... i sark at physical stuff... psychic stuff mite mean sumtin diff tho... heh heh heh.

start work... met MARK-bhai (bhai = sumtin lik "boss" in hindi)... he was real frenly n all... den at fiRz MESS wanted 2 team up wif me n JEN.. but in e end neva, dang... if oni he did,den we cood hav sold out e PIZZAs real fast...(did i mention? we're sellin pizzas door 2 door)... MESS n HANXIANG muz hav had sum secret method or summat cuz dey sold their pizza damn fast... me n JEN were e last team 2 complete... well,boss was happy,we fiRz day den finish sell liaoz =) (ok,i cheated,i bot e last one 4 myself)... sum ppl were juz damn rude,yaH... refused 2 open e door,pretend lik neva hear... shut e door at our faces... __ neva be an insurance seller i muz say... end of e way,everyone was so damn tired... our legs hurt lik hell... den so damn hungry too... start work from lik 5 until 10.30...

ok,later me n JEN workin again... meet HAN XIANG dey all at 3.40... den diz tym itz BOON LAY... easier baHz? i wanna get another one or two more ears holes... i wanna fill up my whole rite ear... gotta do it b4 skool reopen... hell,yeaH.

STANDIN' IN THE RAIN

2004-11-14T21:54:00.000+08:00

firz tym tt i am bloggin twice in a day...yeaP...juz filin so restless...came back from Marina there...eat eat eat...den learned how 2 play tt deejay machine(so fun)...den i juz felt lik i needed 2 change e musick,cuz hip hop dun reli go well in ma blog...so here it is...BILLY TALENT's Standing In The Rain... im sure not many of u wood have heard of em b4... so here's e full lyric.
My head, it hurts,
each day it's getting worse,
My looks and smile have now become my curse,
Tight lips, red skirt the never ending street,
Big car, little man, my lover for a fee...

So if ya see me will ya just drive on by
Or will I catch the twinkle inside your eye?
And if ya want me, well, I guess I want you
Oh pretty baby how could you!

Standing in the rain...
Milk carton mug shot baby missing since 1983,
Standing in the rain...
20 years of dirty needles rain drops running through my veins!

My head, it hurts, each day it's getting worse,
No sun, my room has now become my hearse,
Cold sores, I'm beat got bruises on my feet,
My pride, these men have taken it from me!

So if ya see me will ya just drive on by
Or will I catch the twinkle inside your eye?
And if ya want me, well, I guess I want you
Oh pretty baby how could you!

Standing in the rain...
Milk carton mug shot baby missing since 1983,
Standing in the rain...
20 years of dirty needles rain drops running through my veins!
Standing in the rain...
Milk carton mug shot baby missing since 1983,
Standing in the rain...
20 years of dirty needles rain drops running through my veins!

FORGOTTEN

2004-11-14T13:42:00.000+08:00

I HATE BEIN FORGOTTEN

over and over and over AGAIN

wen will u eva learn?... wen will u eva realize it HURTS?

but of coRz u wont, u neva knew.

cuz i m but a piece of thrash,yes,ttz wad i am... use me... den throw me away...
ttz e way i was meant to be... aint i?... i have to rite 2 complain actualli... i m not bein petty or over possessive... i m suffocatin.

rip _|_ rip _|_ rip

2004-11-12T12:03:00.000+08:00

2 day neva update liaoz... been busy last 2 days helpin out at MESSIAH's blog... yeaP... he knew no nuts at first... he owes ALMOST EVERYTIN 2 me n DOLLY... DOLLY fixed e layout 4 him... den i added all e extra stuffs lik blinkies,graphic pictures, re arrange e positionin of e entries... den add in sum marquees carryin THIS IS THE NEW SHIT's lyric... yeaP... i "manipulated" his mind... n now he finalli agrees MARILYN MANSON rockxxx... yeaH!

den 2day i kinda gave ma whole blog a make over,cuz MESS said it was real cool...juz take off all e pinkie stuffs n it'd be perfect... oh well,i tink ma work isnt tt bad... i replaced a few blinkies n stuffs.. itz bloody well done =)

yesterday BRIAN duplicated ma whole blog wif sum crappy method he has(but itz totalli kool tho)... at first it made me blow red... but ok,now we're cool... i guess even tho sum1 has disabled e rite click ting,there's stil many ways 2 rip e stuff off.

n yesterday was oso ma parent's dunno how many-th anniversary... n DEEPAVALI too... my folks finalli bot a new tv... yay!!! I LOVE BOLLYWOOD (eva since i was 9 yrs old actualli)... my sis had her ears pierced... i wanted 2 get another one done too,but mum wont see 2 it... guess i gotta do it bhind her back.

in lik 6 hours tym,i'll have 2 tolerate 2 hrs of hell for my chinese tuition liaoz... i haven start doin e homework... den tt china whore stil wanna test me on e hw she gave... i cant take it!!! save meee GOD!!! kill her in an accident or summat (british slang for "something") ... DIE U FAT CHINA WHORE!!!!

Billy Talent rocks

2004-11-10T11:34:00.000+08:00

yesterday...i WAS late meetin JEN dey all...but well,so was TING SHENG, den we both late 2gtha... blame e damn bus...took ages 2 cum.

TERESA bot her sister,CINDY,along under sum reli I'm-Your-Mom-Diz-Is-Ma-Command situation...well,CINDY was reli well bhave...Aww,TERESA is sucha baaaaad sister... OK, on e train,JENMEY started openin all her presents...LoLx,tt gal was lik so touched,lik almost wanna cry liaoz liddat...den at there liaoz go watch THE ~~DOLLY~~ DOLLMASTER... reli nice,even tho it did freak me out lik ani other horror stuff...but stil,e real doll-cum-human tt went ard killin all those ppl,MANI,she was reli so cute... i have no idea where e hell dey found such a perfect lookin person... she looks so much lik a doll... well,DOLLY looks lika doll too =)

anywayz,all e galz felt reli freaked bout goin 2 e toilet after tt movie,cuz one of e characters died in e toilet X,x (lovely scene eh?die-while-u-shit package).. Oh,yea...den TERESA had asked ppl 2 help her check e appeal results,haiz,me n her both unsuccessful...den 3 ppl made it 2 3D,YILING den dunno hu n dunno hu... hahaaz... congratz YILING =)

after e movie,we all go play at ARCADE...den at me n TERESA do tt car racin ting,s owayz,i drove REVERSED -.-...im baaaad at wheels... den me n MESSIAH agreed 2 do tt para para dance tingy(he wan me 2 malu wif him)... den at fiRz go lotsa ppl,dey all lik sooo pro... lik can do alot of steps at once...den me n MESSIAH lik at firz act cool liddat,but reli go dance liaoz,choose BEGINNER's stage (malu malu)...den we dance those one step one step liddat loRx,den all e pros all ard lookin at us(sure smirkin at us).. but lucky,our big "legion" of frenz were there clappin 4 us after it was over...i reli sark at it..but hey!i reli wanna try it out often again.
den me MESS n JEN planned 2 J.E. e arcade 2 try it out summor... but at fiRz end up go take neoprint...yesH,MESSIAH says i act cute but let's see who's e person reli acting cute in there loRx,e tongue stick out until e extreme,tryin 2 act "KINDERGARTEN" bla bla... hahahaz... but after finish pai zhao liaoz, my dad called me den told me "YOU HAVE CHINESE TUITION AT 6PM,WHERE ARE U? CUM BACK NOW! ", i was lik shocked,no one reminded me earlier tt i wood hav tuition...wth... i neva had tuition for lik ages n ages,i sumhow managed 2 convinced ma mom i can self-study...now mom says she cant trust me anymor.... bla bla... she's turnin in2 a control freak!!! eeeek!... dun she noe e way my mind works? i'm nice wen sum1 treats me nicely,i fite back wen sum1 trys 2 control me... diz is sooo not workin.
so well,i gave up e arcade-plan n rused home.... i got home at lik 6.30pm,den ma farkin parents told me tt e tcher decided 2 cum at 7.30pm...y e farkin hell cooden dey hav told me earlier?... fark em bitches... i cood stil hav been playin at e arcade... but look! fuck fuck fuck...
e tcher finalli came,she kept remindin me 2 "FOLLOW ME", fat china whore. havin tuition juz felt sooo WRONG... MAY n TUITIONS weren't meant 2 be 2gtha... i remember wen i was younger,i tried any ways possible 2 skip tuition...esp chinese,i juz hated hated hated it... but loook,now ma farkin parents brought e tchers over 2 ma own abode!... CHINESE will occup 2 days a week already (eatin up my freedom lik a cookie monster)... den MATHS n SCIENCE will cum later... AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!
diz is NOT HAPPENIN!!!!
plus,tt bitch GAVE ME HOMEWORK!!!! HOMEWORK... which kid is doin homeworks after their streaming?...nobody but ME!!!
anywayz, check out BILLY TALENT,ppl... dey totally rock... there's diz song STANDING IN THE RAIN by em...
"So if ya see me. will ya just drive on by. Or will I catch the twinkle inside your eye? And if ya want me, well, I guess I want you. Oh pretty baby, how could you!
Standing in the rain...Milk carton mug shot baby missing since 1983,Standing in the rain...20 years of dirty needles, rain drops running through my veins!"

den there's another one called LINE AND SINKER...
"Everybody needs some sympathy... Santa seemed to miss my chimney... Reality is truly scaring me... So stand up straight and firmly say...
What you see is what you get! (Fishing for the answers with a line and sinker) Look at me and don't forget! (Hard to get a grip with all these broken fingers) "
totally into STATIC-X's n BILLY TALENT's nowadays...

yea...u push it push it!

2004-11-09T10:44:00.000+08:00

i woke up 2day one of e sweetest dreams eva...i dreamt my life was wonderful again...i wish i'd neva wake up from tt.

2day later goin 2 meet JENMEY dey all at JE interchange at 12.30pm...i dun wanna be late...hee hee

yesterday nite go Tamah Jurong there 4 BBQ wif TERESA n CAROL n sum other choir peeps...total bout lik 10 liddat?...i extra la,not committee den stil go,summor go so late,made WANTIN wait 4 me...CAROL juz dyed her hair,given her extreme fair skin n all tt,she looked lik sum kinda mixed or eurasian liddat...at there veri fun,i had 2 keep on helpin TERESA,ok,so i kept screamin everytym e hot tingy touch me...4giv me 4 bein me =)...den we all go play arcade...got diz small guy keep play wif us same tym,den he kept winnin,i HATED tt smirkie smile on his face everytym he did...i almost won him in our last round...but well...heck!

Static-X is reli nice...diz song...e chorus is reli kinda cute...
"yeah,u push it push it! yeah,u push it push it! yeah,u push it push it!.... You,u push it push it! You,u push it push it! You,u push it push it!"
den there's diz song THE ONLY, reli nice too...
"You're trying to take me. You're trying to make me. This is the only. Give me the only thing. I'm tired of trying! I'm tired of lying! The only thing I understand is what I feel "

dammit...

2004-11-08T12:08:00.000+08:00

yeaH,my template yesterday more dan half juz disappeared...im sure it wasnt cuz i lik clicked it away or wadeva...it juz VANISHED...diz is all i've rebuilt now...later i have choir....arrrgh.... tml is JENMEY's BIRTHDAY...most probably will be goin out watch movie or sumtin... den i hav 2 help tt clueless boyfren or hers pass her sumtin too...

stil filin reli fucked up n frustrated...i oni hav a backup of e template from my diaryland tingy...most of e editions,like e blinkies n e MUSICK corner down there...e links n all those crap...juz vanished too...damn,diz is tiring...i cood say tt i made e blog from scratch,cuz i reli did...

n imma havin probs wif e friggin tagbaord again...it juz wont go in2 e rite place well...for now.

o fark,im gonna b late 4 choir.

to pee or not to pee

2004-11-06T18:35:00.000+08:00

yesterday,i juz felt so sad n fucked up...dunno y...argH...teary-on-bed-fever was back.

wheex,2day was OPEN HOUSE day...yeaP...ZzZ...woke up late(actualli i dint,i juz went back 2 slp again)..den go choir...had ma whole head sprayed wif black hair spray...whoosH,my shirt all dirty oso...den my whole head lik rock liddat...
mayb it was juz ma weird hairstyle or sumtin,diz was e common ting tt almost everyone said wen dey saw me "oh, May! your hair!" den bein e saintliest tt i am,i smiled at everyone...but of coRz,wad MESS said was "u look freaky",cooden smile back to THAT comment,juz told him itz reli hard 4 me 2 look any freakier dan he himself...itz weird,of corz i noe,but damn,ttz e whole point of it,isnt it?...duH!...i tink he dyed his hair back 2 same color tt he did durin JUNE holidayz or sumtin,ah,tt dejavu filin was nice...anywayz,i "UPGRADED" to e 4th row in choir...not bcuz i actualli suddenly grew taller,4th row juz needed more peeps.

den e fiRz tym on stage was lik shyt,i had no space 2 move...but blaH blaH...heck! den me n MUI at there keep studyin e bimbo's group of pinkie whores (jk la) de armpits,see which of em neva shave...wahahahaxx!
durin e fiRz brek,me n KARYIN had our hair extended,she did diz brown golden kinda tingy...n i had diz lime green tingy...mine was lik out of place...but heck!itz ok 2 be weird.
den after e whole torturous ordeal of singing or all 3 sets,3SA dropped me off wif e 2D ppl,den she n CK went off 2 church(god bless)...den we juz kept hangin ard e skool,witout a clue where 2 go,(plus,there was diz clueless guy tt dint noe wad 2 do bout his galfren's bafday -.-)...CAROL went home fiRz...den MESS cooden stand e waitin,so he stormed away,i wonder y he isn't a GEMINI given diz characteristic...hmmmx,heck!
anywayz...i juz had my fortune told by e MOUTH OF TRUTH,it says i shood stop worryin bout everyone else,n tink more 4 maself...errr...nvm,it cant owayz b rite.

in e end,end up go WESTMALL...yeaP...fiRz wanted 2 go pierce ear wif DOLLY n JEN...but dey both changed their mind...so in e end neva...we juz kept wokkin ard e mall...den i got in2 diz dispute wif sum security guy...i was juz touchin one of e curtain tingy...den he kept pointin den starin at me...den BRIAN purposely at there wavin n smilin at e person...it duzen pay 2 frenly 2 doz ppl boy -.-

errr...den wad arHz?oh yeaH...i helped tt "clueless guy in his clueless mission" den went home...arrrr...i nid 2 go out eat liaoz...B.bye!

im ma princess & diz ma diarie

2004-11-04T20:59:00.000+08:00

whoopx...yesterday juz dyed ma hair...reddish...yeaP,but not under e sun den itz juz purplish brown,not veri obvious...under e sun liaoz *heads turn*...hair lik on fire liddat.......
ok ok,so i did KUA ZHANG a bit...hahaz

2day actualli spose 2 go 4 choir...den i met up wif TERESA n CAROL den go eat brekfast at e coffeeshop...we realized there was stil HOURS til choir started...tingz juz started gettin real borin...so we d-cided laz min 2 skip choir (*whoopx*) ...den we all veri quick decided 2 go watch PRINCESS DIARIE 2 at CAUSEWAY POINT... den i tried 2 get MESS 2 cum along n asked him get summor peepz 2 cum along (cuz laz tym he was lik sooo eager 4 diz movie's release) den now he tels me he aint free...ooh ya ya,say it...im *borin*,itz juz no longer fun hangin wif me anymor rite?n u wan me 2 fark out of ya life,d/w,ya wish is ma command...yeesH.

den at dere,we kept goin ard from shops 2 shops...den i bot diz big shiny ear tingy...i juz fall in luv wif shiny tingies,dey're err.......shiny?(hmmm,makes sense => )
okie,den we bot e 3.20pm show tix...it was ages n ages b4 3.20pm (honestly,itz juz one n half hr)...we "conquered" e whole of C.P. in juz a matter of an hour...den we waited n waited 4 e rest of 30mins to pass away insyd MAC'z,where 3SA had 2 treat me 2 drink cuz im totalli broke(my EZ-link's empty...dammit)...den we crept food in2 e cinema...yeaP...e coke spilt on ma leg...sticky...eeky.

e movie was nice...awww,i juz luv HAPPY ENDINGS =) ...
den on e bus home,CAROL n 3SA kept suan me...cuz i kept laffin at maself(i cant help it,i see ma friggin nails n how terribly coated dey were,i juz crack!)...ooh yea,dey tink im psycho...well yea,i am(sumtymz)...den me n CAROL started diz argument ova MRS KIM laz year's joke bout tym,sumtin bout "2 to 2 to 2"...i dunno,we juz kept goin on bout it,n laffin until our stomach hurts hurts hurts lik hell,n 3SA was there beggin' us 2 change e subj...LoLx!

2day was grrreat....e galz made sum plan 2 go Orchard on monday...sweetie,u'll cum...wont u?...hahaz =))

n diz is how it reli fils...

2004-11-02T20:56:00.000+08:00

juz read MUI's blog...den i tot i shood juz tell everyone wad i havta...b4 i eva lose diz chance..."you better say it right now cuz you dont have another day"

been tryin lately 2 tink on e brite side...stay happy n juz go on wif wad life's installed 4 me...
but now all i can tink bout is a lyrics in e song GRADUATION...
so many tingz i had taken for granted s i stepped in2 e class everyday...e class...e noise lvl...e jokes...n now dey're all gone...i kept tinkin " times will never change,Keep on thinking things will always be the same.But when we leave this year we won't be comming back,no more hanging out cuz were on a different track" i keep tinkin tingz will owayz be same...i HATE changes...i wish tingz cood remain e same 4eva n eva n eva!!!

wad im gonna miss?...im gonna miss MR LOH's everyday naggin n his petty attitude...FENG's dumb-blondishness...MR NG's lame jokes n story...all e jokes we cracked on e tchers 2gtha...all e competitions tt we went tru s a class,e class spirit...itz juz so...beautiful.
i'm gonna miss MUI MUI n CLEMENT alotttttttttttt....itz lik we were in e same class for 3 whole years (actualli itz 4 years wif MUI)...came from same pri sch and all tt....e ppl i see everyday...all of CLEMENT's nonsense n crappy rubbish...all his toks bout politics n everyday....den MUI's naggin...yeaP...she's lik my mum liddat...naggy..but carin...laz yr we owayz hanged 2gtha...den itz lik everyday oso veri fun wif her ard...i guess i reli took her 4 granted...how cood i?...i sark! i sark! i sark!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!...i luv MUI MUI...alottt =)))
...den there's oso JIAHUI,she's veri naggy too...she likes 2 nag me ard...yeaH,co-incidence or wad?..ma galfrenz lik 2 nag me ard...hahaaaz....yet,taken for granted....granted granted!!! all for granted....i sark i sark i sark!!!!! n den there's TERESA too,but tt galz stil stuck wif me...hahaaz...but how cood she surviv on witout me?...LoLxx!! im e fun factor 2 her...yeaP,cant take her 4 granted too loRx...
n den there's e CAPTAIN BALL games durin P.E lesson...yeaH,my regular WINNIN team ...WEI WEI,JOANNA,JOLINNE,TERESA,MUI,ME...thanx 2 em...i reli improved alot...haaahaaz...den every tym against e same LOSIN team(waaahahahahahahz..jk)...CAROL,LIUWAH,ANNABEL,GRACE,REGINA,YU LEI,RUOTIN...den LIUWAH wood scrrreeeeaaam when eva dey enter a ball,cuz itz reli a miracle...LoLxx....Liuwah n her voice...gone,too....haizz...n den there's GRACE wif her veri girly squeeky voice,n REGINA wif her playful behavior,n RUOTIN wif lotsa tingz 2 complain bout...LoLxx!!! haizz...gonna miss all tt too....CAROL wif all lame lame tingz...LoLxx...me n her owayz keep makin fun of TERESA...den we laf laf laf until lik siao cha bohx....
den there's e boyzzz...all wif e playful BHB attitude...LoLxx...TINGSHENG,hu kept askin if his hair was nice,n kept botherin me durin ENG lesson...ARRON,e monitor n carin hommy tt spoke "perfect english"...LoLxx...HAN XIANG,e big tuff-lookin guy who's owayz crackin joke from e corner of e class...TROY,owayz botherin me 2 massage him...there's DEX,whom i used 2 hang wif laz yr...of coRz,there's YUAN ZHANG,THEO,n WEI REN too...e three musketeers...hahaaaz..but dey goin same class leHx...yeaP,but i cant take em 4 granted too...
itz lik s i look back on these tymz,everytin juz seems so happy...but now tt im comin 2 an end,itz lik e happiness is all shattered "Cuz we're moving on and we cant slow downthese memories are playing like a film without sound"...cuz itz tym 2 say GOODBYE...tt miserable word of partin n bein torn apart...e one tt signifies e endin of a relationship...

but diz isnt e end rite?...dun tell me so..."I keep, I keep thinking that its not goodbye,Keep on thinkin its a time to fly"
frenz4eva...holdin on 2 all deez memories til ma laz breath...i luv u guys...2b'04 roxxxx

failures not flatterin'

2004-11-01T20:46:00.000+08:00

haiz...bein stuck at home for 3 days liaoz...im gonna b bored 2 death...okie...not reli stuck totalli for 3 days...saturday go booze party wif ma cousin(*burp*)...den sunday go see ma daddy play tennis match,sum club tournament tingy...lucky dad's not a william hung of sports(BRY's creation) lik me...hahaz

den 2day wenta skool 2 see PHOR wif ma dad...met one of ma future classm8z there(wat's her name again?)...she juz rebonded her hair 2day,n itz reli nice...i can see e future now,me n her mite bcum v close fren...mayb e upcomin yr wont be so bad after all...but she did warned me bout e 2E'04 boys-go-3E'05 boys veri veri childish...LoLx...i dunno...is tt bad? =X

den 2day BRY laz min told me tt he n MESS go watch movie...yeesH...i was finalli in peace wif maself,n he havta cum screw it all up...felt kinda pissed at fiRz,esp wen i was lik filin reli bored hopin i can find an opportunity 2 go out...i juz wanna go out,brek out,go crazy...den i realized tt i dun reli lik noe BRY n gang anywayz,so heck... found a reason 2 be happy again...LoLx...i'm finalli gonna be able 2 dye ma hair,since oladi meet PHOR liaoz...i'm free!!! yeaP...but dunno wad color...beta ask ma hommies 4 their opinion baHz...=))

cant rely on e same ppl 2 bring me fun all e tym...i'm makin plans wif ma sweetie...hmmmx...even if i were 2 part...i wanna part happily...actualli we're not partin rite?...we're gonna hold on,be frenz 4eva?...yeaP!...*i believe in a ting called love*...n life suddenly got sooo much more beautiful...izit reli?...i dunno...i dun care...im juz psycho...i luv it diz way...whoooooooxxxxx!!! hahaaz

i juz wanna take diz chance now...to tell ma ex classm8z...i luv u guys!...all e way from e quietest TANNY,snowy SWAI MING,loud LIUWAH to errr... CINDY!...heeheex...2B'04 foreva n eva n eva...cuz foreva alone is sucha short tym(aww...im juz psycho...dun mind me)

alone in e end...

2004-10-29T18:57:00.000+08:00

today made planz go eat brekfast wif a few peepz...i got maself in2 deep shit in e end,stuck outside H.O.D for soo long...almost wanted 2 cry,cuz i wanted 2 spend diz laz day juz APPRECIATIN ma classm8s 4 e laz tym...yeesH!(sheesh)
ahh...had our results back 2day...i'm goin 3E nex yr...tt dint scare or saddened me at firz...i was tinkin bout wad MESS told me b4 "me,u n brian sure end up same class wan" i tot,well it'd be swell,tt'd be lik a rather fun yr ahead if it were so...n err,tingz seemed well at firz wen THEO,YZ,WEIREN all happened 2 be goin 2 3E DnT oso...den TERESA oso(not a good ting,tt poor gal,she was reli upset)...but JH goin 3D,so is TROY n 2 other guys(reli v few ppl from 2B go 3D)...den found out MESS oso goin 3D,he was shocked,dint noe his results diz bad stil cood go...but well,he was happy.

den i started 2 realize tingz werent reli goin e tingz i tot dey wood...my close frenz,we're all partin...dey say we'll stil hang n be close,i dunno...i reli dun...i remember sumone sayin sumwhere b4 bout bein 2 lazy 2 even say hi 2 each other after go diff class...tingz mite actualli stil be ok even if MESS go D,cuz he's owayz been in a diff class anywayz,but stil...quite disappointin...i was lik hopin all of us cood go same class 2gther...but wen reality hit me,i realized i'm gonna be reli pathetic n lonely nex yr...

i wanna end up in a class wif classm8z tt are "normal n simple minded"...i dun wan "complicated" ppl...it juz seems so scary...how cood i be myself ard em diz way?...basically,i juz reli wanna go same class s JH n MESS...plus there's WEICHENG n DOLLY there too...tt'd be so fun...i went 2 appeal after skool...but e chances r so damn low...e class is packed...n my average is below 60...but i reli dun get it,i passed both ma maths n science,i shooden be in E..no...LOH told ma dad itz cuz of ma conduct...itz SO NOT FAIR!!!

im actualli reli startin 2 REGRET everytin now...i let myself loose n dint bothered bout ma studies...too caught up wif ma problemz n everytin...n now,who loses in e LONG RUN?...ME...n yet,i dun tink i've woken up yet.

Mom n dad juz got back juz now...i cood go see e VP n promize 2 bhave myself,n get sum tchers 2 recommend me...but LOH told em no1 wood do tt...now i regret not givin any tchers any respect...e chances r reli low...every tcher tt noes me HATES me...

i wonder if i can change nxt yr...i wonder if tingz wont turn out so bad...i wonder if i wood eva learn 2 cope wif it...i wonder lotsa tingz...i wonder if i can reli hold on...im tired...im so afraid...i fil so alone...i fil so weak...y duz tingz hav 2 be diz way?

my firz real entry X,x

2004-10-27T21:08:00.000+08:00

yeaP...finalli got e friggin blog done...in juz 3 days tymx...o my...i'm reli good.

diz song is reli nonsensical...but i tot it sorta suits e blog now...fallen interlude...hahaz...

Okie,2day after skool..nobody had any idea where 2 do...den MESS oladi disappeared...so TERESA forced me go choir wif her...den we firz go com lab,try 2 do her blog...but damn,e com damn lag...there were sum idiotic sec1 kids there watchin sum 2pid animation which played reli cool thrash metal music...but dey dint look a bit kool at all...gee

itz been a "while" since i've attended choir practices...den 2day at firz,dey teach "YU JIAN" tt Stef Sun song...reli nice 2 sing...but e lyrics looked pyscho to me...bout diz psycho gal waitin 4 her MR RIGHT of e future or sumtin...i dunno...my chi not tt good...heh heh heh...den wen dey started 2 teach sum other chi song tt sounded lik SOAP OPERA...i started dozin off...ZzzzZ

After Choir,went wif TERESA n CAROL to JP...dey needed 2 buy sum crap 4 MR ONG's "departure"...im tryin veri hard 2 tell maself 2 not screw up e card juz lik how i did 2 e class's card 4 ONG...but e tempation is takin ova me...Oh No...at firz we go buy stuff 2 eat...tt TERESA bought ALL THE EGG SUSHI from e shop...loose screw X,x...Den after bought e cupboard card crap...we all go PAI ZHAO!!!...yay...veri long neva pai liaoz...summor my collection all turned 2 dust wif e stolen bag,so muz make new collection again...diz tym e pictures came out reli nice...much beta compared 2 e ones i took not long ago e one tt MESS go ard tellin otha ppl how 2pid i looked...yeesH![sheesh])...

Den go home,CAROL asked TERESA to take 180 cuz "187 lik turtle liddat"...den i oso took e same bus...got off sumwhere not tt near my home...den wokked home...nearly 7pm liaoz...ZzzZ...sian...e tv at e service there....ZZzZZzz

diaox...carol cancel her own face x_x

[bless be]

testing out e anthem....ahem ahem

2004-10-26T22:02:00.000+08:00

hmmx...soon itz tym to move blog liaoz...once i get e friggin tagboard done...ZzzZ...

WaaaaaaaHhhh.....

Duz it help to fil sad bout my old diary?...

Nahz...

i got a whole life ahead to worry about...

at e least,a few more months =))